Random Outbursts of Feelings
Hello world, its me again. It has been a while since I have updated this blog. Perhaps the new phase of life that I am going through since almost two years ago has a larger impact on my life than I noticed. Anyways, I do get the urge to write something here every once in a while, even though no one actually reads this. Nevertheless, I guess this somehow makes me feel better.
Anyways, the reason I am writing this is because I felt kind of empty lately. Don't get me wrong, I still have a great girlfriend, and we love each other a lot. However, I keep feeling like, there should be something more in my life. Friends? Achievements? Some valuable skills? Anything that might have brought some colors into my life. It really feels like I am wasting my days away, not doing or achieving anything that would make me smile when I look back a couple of years from now.
Perhaps in the past,I managed to get way better results that made everyone proud of me? Or maybe I have many reliable friends who made my high school days enjoyable? Now, I barely achieved average results and I have somehow pushed my friends away before I realized what is happening. I wonder does anyone else go through this or is it just me making terrible decisions for the past few years. Whatever it is, I guess it is too late now.
